When was the last time you said, "I am sorry" and meant it? Really meant, not just said it because its the right thing to do or to diffuse a situation. I am not sure the last time I did that...I apologized to the 'pseudo" Step-son recently and The BF and meant. I told my Health Nut Sister sorry just yesterday but I only partially meant it.
The other day I had an interesting conversation with an old friend from college. He was calling to say hi and to apologize for something that happened between us 12+ years ago. He told me that it was something that had been on his heart recently and felt that he should say I am sorry.
I was floored I had forgotten all about the incident and now that I am looking back I realized that it changed our friendship and did impact me but not in a horribly adverse way and I moved forward. It wasn't something horribly bad or illegal and not even immoral.
What moved me the most was that he still cared about me (as a friend) enough to call me and say I am sorry. This got me thinking how often do I apologize? I like to think I apologize when I am wrong...if I think I am wrong. But I have never apologized for something that happened years ago.
For the most part I am a good person despite a slight leaning towards evil (those college years were fun) when I was younger, so I am sitting hear pondering how many apologies do I owe people.
There are a few and I am going to call/email those people but there is one person I lost track of that I really need to say I am sorry. Briefly in time I dated this nice guy back when I was channeling my evil side. I was a really bad girlfriend...you know the manipulative, mean, controlling girl. I was the girlfriend that his wife (I heard he got married) probably curses on a daily basis. I am not saying I have the power to affect a person so greatly but I did...I was horrible. If I knew where he was I would call and apologize to him and his wife.
Do you need to apologize to someone in your life? I highly recommend that you do...its freeing in the most amazing way.